It's a New Day

Ok people! I'm back. My tears are wiped away and I drove to work listening to Shine FM and hearing love songs from the Lord telling me, "you can do it, I will give you the strength, I have a purpose for you, I am with you, ask and I will give, you matter to me..." I also read a neat post here that helped give me a new perspective (my favorite part was when she says..."there are no real emergencies"). I am reminded that the world will not fall apart if I make a few mistakes. The kids will not be scarred for life if they get a couple bad grades. I am still a good mother, even when I'm very busy, and very tired. I am doing my very best, and I care about what I'm doing and that goes a very long way. I am trying to remember that this position is a blessing for me. I am learning and growing and meeting new people. Something else that is a recurring theme in my mind these days is: nothing stays the same for long, things change. I watched the movie The Curious Case of Benjamin Buttons and that seemed to be the theme, then at church the sermon was about how only God remains constantly the same, never changing, never wavering. I am so glad for these to truths. I am so glad that I will change, that I will not always be worried, stressed and tired. I will grow in confidence and abilities. I will develop deeper understanding and empathy. More importantly, God remains my rock, my comforter, my source of wisdom and understanding. I can always give him my worries, I can trust him with my life and my children's lives and my students' lives. These thoughts helped dry my eyes last night and helped me rest peacefully.