Friday, December 25, 2009

Christmas Fun

We have now celebrated the first half of our Christmas festivities. We had a great time at Grandma Marion's & Grandpa Gary's. Here is a picture list of some of the fun things we did there:


Played Hide & Seek (there are so many more places to hide here!)


Cuddled in the new cozy blankets that Grandma made

Played with baby dolls


Played with cousins & friends



Made & Ate gingerbread (graham waffer) houses



Rode Grandpa's horse
(note the safety glasses)


Waited a coon's age to open presents, trying to be good the whole time


Opened presents and played with the packaging

Wore our new cute & cozy p.j's
Learned to Rope

Put together toys

Played with the awesome things we were blessed with

Thank you Grandma Marion & Grandpa Gary
We Love you and appreciate all that you do for us.
Love all the McKenzie Kids (the big ones & little ones)

Friday, December 18, 2009

Mischief

Dec. 22 - add one box of Toffiffe Chocolates and a jar of vitamins (child cap so no poisoning happened)


An on going list of things my dear sweet cute funny innocent looking daughter has gotten into today*:
  • Powdered Milk, dumped into empty yogurt cups and all over the floor
  • Nacho chips, distributed into various play dishes and smooshed into the crevices of the couch
  • Water from the water cooler, poured from cup to cup to inevitably land on the floor
  • Toothpaste, smeared on her clothes and bedding during "nap" time! Not much napping going on!
*Previous to this post I needed deal with 1 prematurely opened Christmas present, a cut on her elbow from my razor, water water everywhere, makeup on bed sheets, pillows and face... sigh.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Ba Humbled!

Well, after my rant yesterday I came across this, and this.
To say the least I felt terrible about the perspective I allowed myself to take in regard to baking cookies with my kids, decorating my home, and even the weather.
I have so much to be thankful for. I read some where recently if we all tossed our troubles into a pile, we'd be quick to take back our own. I shouldn't complain about messes, when my children are healthy and whole. I shouldn't complain about broken decorations when I have the abundance to buy fragile little doo dads. I shouldn't complain about the cold weather when I have a warm home, warm clothes and reliable heated transportation. So what if ski pants get wet, I have a washing machine and dryer. It's a cinch, it's a snap, it means serving others without grumping - that is the hard part.
I don't know where the idea came from that I'm entitled to a perfect, magazine Christmas with out having to lift a finger to create that ideal atmosphere and cozy memories. I need to be thankful for the work involved because it is humbling. It stops me from worshiping the traditions and helps me to call on the strength of the Lord. He was and is the best example of a humble servant, whose 1st Christmas was anything but Hallmark! Without him and his humble life and death there would be no traditions to celebrate, no reason for the season as they say.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Ba Humbug!

Ya, so I've been surfing bloggy land too much recently it seems. I got the bright idea that it would be fun to make cookies with my preschoolers. Ya, not so much. Throughout the whole time of "joyful memory making" I could hear myself harping, "don't touch, not yet, just wait, fold your hands, hey! You're not listening! No snitching! DON'T TOUCH!!!!!!" I'm sure it was as sentimental for them as it was for me! sigh. What a great memory for them to keep, I'm sure they can't wait until next year... What Christmas joy and bliss! Bah Humbug

What's with all the crafty crafters lately? How do they have obscure items like googly eyes on hand just when they need them? It takes me 20 minutes to pick a craft to try to do with my kids, 10 more minutes to assemble the supplies, 10 more minutes to substitute for the missing supplies, another 10 minutes to wrap the kids up in paint/glue/sparkle resistant coverings and then KABLAM 5 seconds and they are done, there is a huge mess and they are touching every loving thing they can on the way to the washroom the clean up!! BAH HUMBUG!!

I won't even start on my tree... well ok, I will since I'm on the rant train! It is the leaning tower of broken ornaments right now. We still have 9 days to go!! The one thing I love about it is my tree skirt. I am able to sweep all kinds of shards and debris under it for the time being! When did my children turn into feral squirrels with an appetite for Christmas ornaments? Nuts!!! BAH HUMBUG!!

It's so nice to read about all the people who have done their Christmas shopping in July, so right now they are hand stamping delicate Japanese rice paper to wrap perfectly around their exquisite one of a kind perfect for the person they bought it for gifts!!! NOT! Where are all the procrastinators like me? Oh I know, they are putting off blogging about their last minute shopping, well that does make me feel a little better! Ha! I beat them to it! BA HUMBUG!

How about this delightful weather we're having? @!#%$!!! BA chatter chatter HUMBUG!!

Yes I'm really into the Christmas spirit this year, as you can tell. Actually, it's not as bad as it sounds, mostly I just have to laugh at the frantic perfectionism that this season brings out in me. I'm a reluctant perfectionist, so if I can't do it the way I think it should be done, I don't do it and look for lots of excuses to blame someone else. What I do need to do is stop and consider what is really important, not just at Christmas, but all year round.
  • Jesus came to live & die in this frantic place, to give us peace, joy, love, hope and faith in an eternity of those things with him as our Lord and Savior.
  • Stuff is just stuff, people are the real gifts. When I stop focusing on the stuff I am able to give of myself and receive blessings from others.
  • There is no such thing as perfect, doing little things, even imperfectly still blesses the ones I love.
Ah that is better to refocus and set my sights on a more positive attitude.....

Gah! I have to go and help my daughter out of the ski pants that she just announced that she peed in!!!!!!BA HUMBUG!!!!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Chistmas 2009

Merry Christmas!

It's that time of year when I look back and reflect on our activities. I like to rejoice over the good times and draw attention to God's grace in the difficult times.

In January we returned from our Christmas travels and I jumped into a temporary teaching position. I had the privileged of teaching grade 6 for twelve weeks while I covered another teacher's medical leave. Those kids challenged me, joked with me, confided in me and pushed my buttons like nothing I've ever experienced before. The things they taught me will stay with me for the rest of my life. They taught me: prayer works but usually not how you'd expect, everyone can use the benefit of the doubt from time to time, learning is easier when you feel successful, respect is something you give before you get, high expectations yield better results, there is humor in almost everything, coffee & cup-a-soup keep you from feeling hungry and help you lose weight!

My stint as a full time teacher came to an end just in time. In May we set out for another summer of ice cream peddling. This past summer was challenging, as usual, but it seemed a bit less stressful than in the past. We seem to have a better idea of what we are doing and how to do it. The main challenge we needed to over come was a broken down truck, that when patched up only liked to drive at night time when it was cool. Mike has fixed our truck so many times that he knows every knock, squeal and grind. He is able to keep it running when others would have thrown up their hands in despair. He is almost afraid to begin looking at other trucks because he will not be as intimately acquainted with them and may not be able to adjust to their particular quirks as easily. I'm sure anyone who handles trucks or large machinery can relate. Another challenge we met was a road side inspection by the Department of Transportation. Not what you want to see when you are having truck problems. This was quite stressful for Mike and it cost us a bit of money too, but the up side is that now we are fully inspected and able to travel to other provinces if we choose to next year.

Aside from the usual truck troubles our summer was fairly successful and even enjoyable.
Here is my top 10 list from Summer 2009...

10. Except for in Rocky and "Rainwight", the weather was fairly cooperative and helped sales along nicely.
9. We had super staff this year. Interesting people who didn't mind working hard, that we enjoyed spending time with. What a blessing from God!
8. Hanging out with Darrel & Christine in Grande Prairie (Matia got to enjoy a Gel Bath because Christine just has cool stuff like that)
7. Throwing a bridal shower for my little sister in Sylvan Lake (what an honor to get to be there in the midst of all of summer's business).
6. Going boating and "lakeboarding" as the kids call it, with Jamie & Steven at Buffalo Lake to decompress after the stressful D.O.T. inspection.
5. Visiting the splash park in Beaumont with Olga & Sarah & Amy. Very refreshing, fun and free!
4. Gopher hunting with Daddy in Wainright (Dade & Matia were right into the thrill of the hunt, Mommy opted to scoop ice cream).
3. Attending my sister's wedding and enjoying seeing all of our family and friends. What a beautiful & fun weekend it was.
2. Hanging out at the state of the art park in Lethbridge. The kids would have stayed there forever! I even got to hang out with Rhonda, my long lost school buddy and our kids had a blast. Again fun & free!

And the #1 best thing of the entire summer, as it always is, was the love and support of our family and friends as we lived out our carny life for another summer. We would never succeed in this endeavor with out the phone calls, baby sitting, helping hands and listening ears of all our loved ones. You all truly do love us unconditionally and we are forever grateful.

This fall and winter our we are spending our time close to home working on various projects on our house and property. Mike is building an outdoor wood boiler to heat our home. We have put in laminate flooring with an in floor radiant heating system that will be heated by our wood boiler when it is complete. There are many projects to face up to and we are working on them as we are able. One of the fun things Mike is working on is a giant snow fort for the kids. Every time it snows he uses the back hoe to pile up the snow and the kids have a blast climbing on it and sliding down it. When it is all packed down and hard Mike plans to tunnel into it and make a snow cave. There are unique advantages to living in the country.

Dade and Matia have grown up so much over the past year. I no longer have babies, but very independent and interesting kids. Dade loves to be active. He likes any sport you can name, even sports he's never played like football. He just likes the idea of running and doing something with a ball. He is very coordinated and I think he will prove to be quite athletic as he gets older. He likes to think up games (paddle ball: hitting a large kick ball across the house with 2 ice cream lids) act out shows and play pretend a lot. He has a gentle spirit and is very helpful to me and keeps his little sister in line. He's a guys guy though and is dying to go coyote hunting with Mike this winter. He wants to use his marshmallow bow! He also really enjoys watching Myth Busters (Miss Busters he calls it) and Top Gear with Daddy. We have been doing a little bit of preschool activities here and there, but mostly enjoying time just being a kid. We will start more structured activities next fall when he is 5.

Matia is our princess. She is a girl through and through. She loves to dress up, to play cook & clean, though getting her to clean up her toys in reality is a bit of a challenge. She likes make up and when the house is quiet and I can't see her anywhere near me I know I should go see if she is getting into my make up or some other trouble!!! She does like to get into mischief, like playing with water from the water cooler and pouring it into half a dozen little containers while she spills the rest on the floor, or coloring the couch with red marker, or dumping out all her socks and underwear and scattering them hither and yon throughout the house, to name a few. In just one short month she will be 3, does that mean that these 2 year old tendencies will fade or just increase? Yikes! For all that she is sweet and kind and loves to mother her babies, cuddle the kittens, read stories in my lap for as long as possible and she still has her beloved elephant...for now.

And so our lives have not changed much over the last year. We are thankful for what we have while we try to decide what it is we should work toward next. We enjoy a lot of time together as a family and try not to take that for granted. We are really enjoying living near the city. We visit family and friends weekly. Settlers of Catan is a favorite game of ours and we have convinced quite a few friends to become just as hooked as we are. We enjoy attending Grace Point Church of God in the city; it is worth the drive for us to have the sense of community we get from our familiar home church.

Some things you can pray for us in the up coming year are:
  • Wisdom to know how to best spend our time, resources and talents.
  • Health & Safety
  • Reliable vehicles
  • Abundant opportunities to try and learn new things.
  • Patience and constancy in bringing up our children.
  • Opportunities to share God's love with others.
  • Obedience to act on those opportunities.
We look forward to the new year and all the surprises it will bring. We pray that you, our friends and family, will have a safe and happy Christmas, and will experience abundant blessings in 2010.

Love
EM

Friday, December 11, 2009

Gentleness Training - Week 1

I started a gentleness challenge this week. When I first read about the idea I thought it was something I could easily be successful at. After all, I've always been described by my friends and family as a nice person, easy going, calm, and kind. I've since found out that these people who love me might be a bit biased in their descriptions. I have a quick temper and bitterness seethes close to the surface often. The ones that live with me will tell you that I am not always gentle. My words can be quite sharp, bringing forth hot tears (mine and theirs). My fingers press just a bit too tightly into soft skin as I try to convince a body to do my bidding. Most of all, my facial expressions and body language speak loudly of the thoughts I might not say. My rolling eyes and audible huffy sigh brutally defeat a daughter seeking comfort, a husband looking for warmth, a son seeking approval.

No I am not a gentlewoman... but I want to be.

The only comfort I have regarding my lack of self control is that I am terribly ashamed of it. The fact that I want to change is what I cling to and what I plead for. The Lord is working in my heart and showing me the wickedness in me, just as I asked him to. Thank you God! What an painful, hope-giving answer to prayer. I have heard of parents praying that their children would be caught if they were involved in sin, so that they could be corrected and reinstated. In the same way I need God to shine his light on the dark ugliness in my soul, so it can be routed out and I can be renewed.

The challenge to be gentle has shone a spotlight on an area in my heart that I didn't realize needed to be cleansed.

I have failed this week many times. It is painful to become aware of my hurtfulness while I am in the very act, but it is also a clean feeling to ask forgiveness and to change the course of my behavior as it unfolds. It's kind of like antiseptic cleansing a wound; ouch, but ahhh!

I have succeeded many times also. It is satisfying to lower my voice and see my children respond to my command any way. Forcefulness is not necessary, it is just my habit. It is heart warming to chose to hold my babies, instead of nag them about every mess I pass in a day.

Very slowly I am learning to choose gentleness, and let go of the tight controlling grip I default to. What freedom! How much more will I find as that grip lessens all the more? I can't wait to find out.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Resolving to do better

After my day last week, I've been looking for some ideas of what to do differently when I am frazzled, or emotional, or things just aren't going the way I had planned. Here are some links to some good advice I've found out there in bloggy land:

Duggar's top 5 parenting tips

1st Time Obedience Training

Gentleness Training


Resources for training & discipline

Lots of reading and learning to do. Praying for strength in weakness.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

I'm so sorry

My dear family,

I will say all of this to you with my words, but I express myself better in type, and I need this here to refer to from time to time (as you know).

I'm so sorry for my dirty rotten selfish ugly attitude toward you today. I didn't mean to be impatient, rude, self seeking, judgmental, irrational and hard hearted. That hysterical woman you were dealing with today, is not the person I want to be. It is not the person God is making me to be, but I slipped up and reverted to my weak self loving flesh today.

Mike I am sorry I didn't speak to you respectfully, and that I didn't consider how lucky I am to have you, a husband who loves me, who desires me and who is home with his family on a cold wintery day. I could have chosen to delight in my role as your helper and friend and lover, yet I turned the cold shoulder and replied with sarcasm and bitterness. I'm so sorry.

Dade, my son, my sensitive boy. You are always aware of other's feelings and you react easily to them. Instead of keeping this in mind and finding ways to show kindness and goodness and patience to you I ignored you this morning and asked you to stay out of my way. Oh how I fret that one day you won't want to be here at home with your family, or want to talk to me about this and that. How can I treat my precious time with you now so trivially? I'm so sorry.

Matia, you trouble maker. You are making every effort to get my attention. The make up will wash off, the water will dry up, the dish water in the pancake batter didn't even change the flavor! All these little things that I get so riled up about mean nothing. But your poor hurt little feelings when I berate you with my sharp words mean everything. You are so precious, and yet I cut you down in an instant with my nasty looks, my tight hand on your arms, and my angry words. I am so sorry.

Oh Lord, how can I do this to the ones I say I love? Why do I struggle so much to show the mercy and grace that you gave me so freely? God, change my heart and my mind and my actions. Forgive me.

Mike, Dade & Matia, please forgive me.

Love
Mom

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Anxiety

That yucky worry feeling is creeping back into my heart.
It truly does feel like a worm, crawling and burrowing into my soul. I know it shouldn't be there, I know I need to pull it out. The repulsion I feel causes me to pause and do nothing and dwell on the pain and gore, allowing it to squeeze in further, and damage more.
It's a spiky fat hungry beast with worry prickles on its back that prevents me from sleeping well, or having any notion of sureness. It is ugly, making my stomach turn in revulsion. It is terrrifying, causing me to hide and rendering me incapable of making decisions or acting with any purpose.
It is an intruder and needs to be exterminated, I just need to find the strength and will to grasp onto the sword of truth and take action. I can't do it, I have to call upon my God, my Savior to come and rescue me. He is willing and able... if...I let him.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Tis the Season

Our Tree

Crazy Nuts in the Tree

Traditions

Riding Behind the Quad in the Wagon
(pre snow)