Posting for the Sake of Posting

It has been a very long time.  I have toyed with the idea of ending it all! My blog that is.  My world and brain are fuzzy and scattered almost all the time these days.  I have great ideas for posts that evaporate long before I can ever get signed in to my computer. But oh how I'd miss this, my one and only creative outlet and personal interest. I have no other craft or hobby. Putting my thoughts into type may just be the key to keeping my sanity.  Therefore I will continue.  My posts will probably be like my brain, fuzzy and scattered, for now.  The best I can hope for is to have some semblance of a record of my life at this time even if it is in choppy lists or a spaghetti tangle of my stream of consciousness.I need to be able to look back and remember how I got through this period of my life, if just to be able to encourage someone else who is where I once was.  I don't really expect anyone to read or understand what I post, I just know that I NEED to post. So to kick things off again, here's a little list of what has been happening since Anya's story began.

Since 2011 I have:

- become a mom to four

- become an iPhone addict
- experienced a prolonged bout of baby blues
- helped my husband to renovate two stores

- lived in my travel trailer, again, and still am for now

- tried and failed to keep up with my homeschooling plans

- experienced a lot of encouragement and kindness from friends and family

- acknowledged my need to let go of my strangling grip on the what ifs and worries of the future and trust God to provide
- ignored the above acknowledgement and continued to worry anyway
- asked for forgiveness for ignoring the above acknowledgement and tried to cast my cares back to God again
- repeated the previous items so many times that I can't keep track and am utterly exhausted and unable to think straight or complete small, seemingly simple tasks, like one little tiny blog entry.

And so I think my session is over for now.

We'll pick this up again another time and hopefully I'll have made some progress spiritually, emotionally and creatively.