Avoiding

Boy, I sure haven't been blogging like I used to.  Just reading other people's blogs exhausts me and I put off writing posts because I feel like I have nothing worthwhile to post about.  I muddle through each day, trying to keep order in our little world, but I feel lost in the little things. 

I don't post that my favorite thing to do each day is laundry.  Having done laundry at laundromats since May I actually like doing laundry in my own house right now, but who posts about that? Maybe if I made my own laundry soap or used essential oils and some ingenious natural product as fabric softener, but no one posts their love for doing laundry. 

I don't post that doing dishes is the worst part of my day.  Of course it is! Everyone hates doing dishes.  I'm just in the throws of renovating my kitchen, and therefore do not have a kitchen sink, so I have to do dishes the old fashioned way, with a basin of heated water.  I don't post about this because I've been doing it for a month now and good grief we should have gotten our sink in by now don't you think? So until the big news comes that our kitchen is done and I can post a picture of our sparkly new sink, I really have nothing to blog about.

I don't post that I'm fearful that I'm not paying enough attention to my kids' homeschooling.  We do a bit of this and that here and there, but it's not the structured routine that I had in my head in Sept.  Yes the kids are progressing with their reading and I'm comfortable where they are at with their counting and number recognition, but maybe I'm to comfortable.  If I was more ambitious I could be doing nifty crafts and games with them every day.  Instead I just let them play with their toys and with each other.  I'm not even enforcing the get outside everyday rule! Gasp!

I think I'm just avoiding the accountability that blogging enforces.  I avoid telling the world that I'm going to do something until I actually have pictures to post of what it is that I've done and it should be pretty terrific and there shouldn't be any messy piles in the background of the pictures.  After all, what is a blog post with out pictures to prove what a great job I'm doing? Therefore since there are messy piles everywhere I look, there are no pictures, ergo no posts. 

Instead I talk to My Five each day, I check FB statuses a few times a day, I return emails if I have some and I pick at my house work and school activities.  The biggest events in my day include Swiffering my floor with Slipper Genies attached to my feet, pouring my favorite fabric softener into my sweet washing machine, and planning the big trek to town complete with menu and list compatible with the isles of the grocery store (where I shall buy paper plates and plastic cutlery, non organic chemical laden machine made cookies).