I'm not myself these days it seems to me.
I have no pictures to post, no stories to tell, the thought of socializing with anyone is an exhausting prospect. I just want to sleep for a few days at the very least. Not sure why I've got the doldrums. I guess I'm just not sure. I'm not sure what I'm doing with my life, not sure of my plans, ideas, dreams. Not sure there is any point in having plans, ideas or dreams when they are just changed, up rooted or given a wake up call. I sound quite sad, but really I just feel nothing. This is the key, I just FEEL nothing, it is a feeling. Feelings aren't truth.
The truth is that God has plans for me, and they are plans for me to prosper, not to harm me. He has given me a hope and a future, so regardless of how blah I feel, his truth is more powerful than feelings.
So while I slog through this listless state of feeling, which really is not very like me, I shall hold on to his truth, I shall believe it and think it, say it, dream it, pray it, until my spirit is renewed and my hope is revived, my mind is refreshed and my heart is full of praise. And I shall top it off with a nice big cherry custard ice cream. God is good ALL THE TIME.
Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
ReplyDeleteIsaiah 40:28-31