FLY - Finally Loving Yourself

I've been a fan of FLY Lady since I was newly married. She has helped me to realize that perfectionism has many forms, and can wear a person down to utter despair. Before FLY Lady I would never have thought of myself as a perfectionist, because honestly, nothing I do turns out to be perfect. I've been known all my life as a bit of a messy, "big picture"person who doesn't dwell on details, easy going and fly by the seat of my pants kind of girl. I'm a huge procrastinator and tend to do my best work under pressure and at the last minute. I've learned that I procrastinate because of the fear of not doing something well. If I leave it to the last minute then I can blame my shoddy results on the fact that I procrastinated, not that I was incapable of doing a good job. Isn't it interesting the little mind games I play with myself. Any way, all this to say that I've learned a few ways to FLY (finally love your/myself). I don't want to think of myself as more important that I am, but usually this is not my biggest problem. My struggle is to remember that though I'm not perfect, I am being perfected as God works his plans in my life. I will never be perfect, but God's amazing grace and his sacrifice for my sins has covered my imperfections and give me freedom to simply do my best. I don't have to live in self disgust and self ridicule. I want to focus on ways to honor my savior with my life, and that includes acknowledging that if God loves me I truly am worth something. What does FLY Lady have to do with all of this? Well, she showed me "baby steps". Small efforts done daily to develop a habit. I want to take baby steps toward authentic worship, daily recognizing what is truly important in my life, serving my family & friends, and learning spiritual disciplines that will draw me closer to the heart of God. Though I've been a Christian most of my life, I feel like I'm lacking the closeness to Christ that will make all the difference in my life. So FLY Day Fridays will be about me examining my baby steps on my journey to follow God's will for my life.