Ready or not...

Well, holidays are over.
I'm saying good bye to my Grandparents and getting ready for the long ride home.
When we get there real life begins again.
I am ready with my new years resolutions, my lists, my charts, my calendars, my accountability partners and my reward stickers. I have great expectations!
I also have fear.
I'm not sure what this new year will bring. I really don't know even what to expect a day from now, and hour from now, a minute from now. The uncertainty is unsettling. How can I possibly have such a long list of goals, hopes, and dreams juxtaposed against endless uncertainty?
Strangely, my plans are a strategy to calm my fears. I can't be in control of much, but I can set in what I think is the right direction. I know they say that if you're lost you should stay in one place until you are found, but I think in the case of the fear of the unknown staying in one place (never moving, never trying) would be fatal. So I choose to take small steps forward, quelling my fear with the knowledge that if I don't move I won't survive. I choose to side step worry and travel along the path that is available to me. I have guidance through the living word and God's Spirit living in me, and I have a conscience that prompts me to do what is right and work toward being a better person each day.
So here I go with tentative steps.
Happy New Year Everyone